@Hermeticus
I suspect I can’t quote properly on my phone.
Even though I desire an eternal and unchanging death, I just don’t see that to be likely. Whilst death for the individual is permanent, I just can’t see that conscious non-existence can be anything but temporary. For example, when I die, this does not impede the motions of life in any way.
“Death is the end of you, but it is not the end of life.”
Coma is definitely a grey area, but brain death can be monitored, a person doesn’t become irretrievable until their brain dies. Even a vegetative state can be recovered from and thus the consciousness is still preserved.
Ah yes, I also favour that definition.
It is commonly perceived that the body upon death returns to the Earth as energy and material but it says nothing about the perpetuation of consciousness. Our access to reality is complex and so I find it hard to live vicariously through the perspective of a cell. It is undoubtedly alive and is a great contribution to the being, but conscious? Accessing reality in a self aware sense? No.
I do support the Buddhist sentiment. The time before birth must be akin to the time proceeding death. We cannot experience death for it is in essence non-being and thus impossible. Only life can be experienced as far as we know. And thus that is what I expect.
And yes agreed, no one will prove nor disprove my proposed cycle of absence then formation for memory it seems is a non-transferable asset. But given my definition of death I can observe the absence before me and call that death, from which I have emerged. And thus I can anticipate a similar reaction proceeding death.
I feel quite burdened by my belief for I do not wish it to be veracious but alas I have convinced myself of my convictions. One death for a man should be enough, but I empathise with the billions before me and the billions after me, of which life will experience and suffer. And what are we if not life?
As simply as the fallen leaves of autumn are replaced, everything alive right now will die and their experiences will be replaced by new ones. Nothing magical nor spiritual, just change.