Sorry, and no hard feelings
:D I had posted my first thread in a wrong topic and I didn't know how fast mods would react, so I just edited the thread asking for it to be deleted, and then I reposted the thread right here where you are looking at it in Metaphysics & Epistemology.
So yeah I'm not well educated, which doesn't mean anything other than perhaps I would be able to explain myself better.
Why do I define myself with such a long sentence? And what do I mean by it? Why is it necessary for me to define myself?
So when I was younger I thought I was an atheist or perhaps I was, I don't remember. Then I found out that I'm more like an agnostic. But at that time I would say "I don't believe in anything not even science because theism and science is unknowable
to me, but I don't deny theism or science, I just simply don't believe in anything fully."
But then a paradox with agnosticism creeped up on me (or atleast my way of agnosticism). How can I know that it's unknowable? (In my opinion I can't). So the word agnosticism wasn't good enough in itself. It has too many meanings that doesn't fit me.
So I read and found out that to add some openness to my agnosticism I added empiricism to emphasize my position on withholding judgement on existence of gods/deities.
I added antireductionism to define my openness to antiscience, because I simply don't believe anything fully.
But I had to add one more word, because it was still a paradox in the way that I define my world view. I added epistemology to counter the paradox on the scientific side(antireductionism), explaning myself that I can't know that I know that the origin of the cosmos/universe is unknowable so therefore I
believe or
think instead, that it is unknowable.
empiricalistic(the part that fix the paradox so that I'm not a close-minded agnostic, and at the same time shows that I'm not an agnostic atheist, it's almost the equivalent to epistemologist but on the theism part of this
thing that I define myself as),
agnostic(the part that deals with theism existence/nonexistence of gods/deities),
antireductionistic(the part that deals with my view on science being unknowable so kinda like agnosticism but on the other side, dealing with science),
epistemologist(the part that counters the paradox with knowledge. To express that I don't know it's unknowable but I think it's unknowable till it empirically has been proven to me which may or may not be possible).
This whole thing is because I want to think logically and open-minded and as I see it theism and atheism is not very logical/open-minded.
It would be much easier if there just was a word for all the 4 or so above statements that I made, because using one word only doesn't describe how I think or it becomes a paradox in the way that I think.
I like it when things makes sense. And if there's something for me that seems to be impossible to make sense of or impossible to be truly known (for example the origin of the universe and consciousness), then I don't bother to claim that I know. All I want to
know(which is a paradox again) is how I should define myself.
Thank you for reading (: