I note, without judgement, that your responses to these questions are entangled with matters like "wrong" and "right" and suffering. I can only presume--having, at best, modest familiarity, lacking expertise--that you are expressing an existential(ist) perspective, and given this post, rightly so. But as I trust that I might eventually communicate my thoughts sufficiently, I'll leap to, as you poetically say, carry "on-on!" with faith and a teleological suspension of Reality (which is that both positions are false).
I perceive the existential as the very product of the Fiction, which fiction is the interconnectedness of all things constructed and moving autonomously within
human consciousness. I.e., hence there is ultimately no burden of choice. The burden can be negated by the realization that it is
not, predetermined but, an autonomous system of triggers.
Does this REALLY imply that choice is meaningless? I think not. — Chet Hawkins
Choice is meaningful. That is my submission. But
meaningful and choice are constructions. They too
follow an autonomous chain of triggers. It is only with Mind that choice and meaning have "meaning" (or not; I.e., whether anything has meaning or not). In Reality, for the unaffected Body, there is no meaning; not life is meaningless! Meaning is meaningless. Let the meaning in Mind flourish, but accept that you are constructing it. Or rather, It is. The you in It's case not being the Body, but rather, the construction "you."
Further argument in favor of choice vs determinism — Chet Hawkins
Each of your captivating words which followed, mean one thing (if they support your position that life or at least we have the burden of choice), and another (if they support my claim that when we try to apply them to Ultimate Reality, that's where words fall apart and their empty fleeting Nature is revealed,
and so too for all that they purport to represent that is, that they are art and their artful persuasion is no coincidence).
I take the latter position. I say you are compellingly using fiction, describing the way existence is for that one species infected with Mind. Courage, right, wrong, freedom and choice. And burden.
I know I, as a human being post-pre-history engage in a process whereby I arrive at a resolution followed usually by a feeling or action which we conventionally refer to as choice. But I also am relieved of the burden because I know it is a process. This is not fear talking, just an insight reflected in the works of many orthodox philosophers, from Socrates to Heidegger and Sartre. Beyond, but since we speak of existential.
Also if you concentrate any any choice, even to get a glass of water, you can see the chain of triggers. But focus in. And don't skip any steps.
I tire for now but with no expectations, I'll read through the rest of your response, because they are edifying, and take the liberty if I have more to say.