“So, did the clock on your wall keep moving while you slept, or was there a leap from when you closed your eyes to when you opened them again, no time passing - nothing exists, just things leaping ahead as if time had passed?“

That’s interesting
I am busy creating a kind of an imaginary model. I hope I can fit this in
I hope to show it some day.

You could be right

Have you ever considered setting aside all the knowledge you've learned and acquired and seeing if you can conjure up the beginnings of an answer from within your own mind? It might not be without danger, but I'd be surprised if the answer isn't there. It seems you've explored every other avenue. If the key to your house isn't outside, it might be inside.

I think you are right

What is the "big picture" if not "all the details", or integrating all details into a consistent whole (big picture)?

That’s an interesting thought…..
To me it looks like every detail exists because of its meaning. A detail can not exist without given a meaning by us. We can “pair” details. We call this abstraction.

So it’s not about details, but about the awareness the so called details gave by our sences. I say “so called” because as I said earlier: the details are born by the meaning we give them.

I think climbing the pyramid of details by abstracting them all, if possible, would give you a godlike view about life.

This means that the abstract universal, the nature of evil, can never be known but can only be inferred.

When I see a chair, to me it is a chair. Although at first it is a chair because I recognize it as such, one can argue if it is a chair. To an ant for example it probebly is not a chair. To an alien it could be something we can’t imagine. Even if the chair looks and feels real, at some scientists will say that the chair could be non existing.

Now the nature of evil: in an encounter with bad outcome with a covert narcissist, I got a strong impression of the devil.
That devil looked as real to me as the chair I spoke of.

Therefore I think that the nature of the chair is as good or as bad to know as the nature of evil.
That, to me, makes the nature of evil a detail as well as the chair is.

The abstraction of what goes above this is what puzzels me…..

Now's when you give us more of your thoughts - you know... details

Yes, yes, I am thinking

Thank you all for the warm welcome! I’m impressed by all your points of view (and now I see the need for concreet examples)