The Nietzschean project of cultural creation Well, I appreciate the responses.
My life circumstances are very unusual. I don't have much internet access. I had enough to post this, check on how it was doing, and then days later reply. I have to be prudent about how I use my limited internet time, but for the time being, this site is still worth a bit of it to me, so I'm posting this. Anyway, it's better for me to consider a response rather than banging something out while my hackles are up. I'm not really here to argue, I'm mostly immune at this point to persuasion, and I'm not looking for prospects here. I'd like to see opposing arguments to see if there's anything I need to consider. I expected opposition, but more in an amiable "lolz, if that's what you want to do, I mean I guess. But here's the choice I'm making and why I feel justified." Reality wasn't that. I keep catching myself expecting too much out of reality.
I look at the post I started with as a communication failure, although it's probably a useful failure, so bluntly stating my animating philosophy, and it was also a very instructive failure. That kind of bluntness is more or less acceptable and even salutory when we're talking about the relatively anonymous internet. But I don't live on the relatively anonymous internet. It shouldn't surprise you that if this is approximately what I think, I spend most of my life concealing that. In my day-to-day life, I'm polite to a fault, many people like me, and those who don't, I do what I can to be invisible to them. I'm not trying to blend in. People who know me know I'm quite unusual (but good-mannered), and the choices I make with my appearance are suggestive of transgression but only for those who are perceptive. I'm very playful with signals like that, and I'm always looking for confirmation (and hostility). On the grossest physical level, I often draw attention away from my above-average face and towards my respectable torso and tremendous calves, but one signal I'm not sending is that I think it's worthwhile to spend time chasing numbers at the gym.
Part of my intent with going on like that for a bit is that by showing what care and consideration I put into my appearance, I try to put into everything. That's what I got mostly from Leo Strauss: the communication of a philosopher to the "city" is highly problematic, unless one desires, like Socrates, to be a martyr (or like a supposed Son of God I could name).
I've also got a profile on a dating site, and my provisional strategy had been an over the top display of my genetic fitness, learned skills, taste, and desire to be a father. From my mistake here, I'm trying a different tack and emphasizing playful collaboration there, although the project is explicitly declared as Family, although sub-goals might include such conversations as "ok, so: gender roles. what has been isn't working anymore. What works for us?"
I want to reiterate my gratitude for this site existing and its role thus far in my education. =)