Crank, u went to the point. Of course we are in control of our actions. I think people who not believe that want to go away from taking responsabilitues of her lives and keep themselves in a negative victim mindset. Not good.

i dont think you have to relate these feelings to a rigid high philosophy concept. I dont know anything about ego-death but i guess it s just a way of thinking, a mindset or a philosphy of life after some realizations. I think u simply want to be kind towards people perhaps because you weren't kind in the past, perhaps you have something you want to be forgiven.
whatever it is, this is a good thing and u do not have to wrry about, just flow in it if it makes u happy.

I'd like to share my thougts nd know yours on belief but not on what belief is but rather on what are the consequences of belief.

I personally think that belief give to people like a reason to live and a real trust in what they do u know, even if the belief is not the truth, that's not the point, but there are a lots of examples on people who made/achieved awesome things because their belief pushed them into a succesfull mindset like they are more able to achieve what they aim. whatever it is, look at what people did on the 21 december 2012 or on highly religious people who made billions.

what do u think bout that ?