Reading over your thoughts, I was really struck by how Kantian they are. Sartre might be spinning in his grave but Kant? Honestly, I think he'd give you a hug for synthesizing such apparently irreconcilable ideas, for using them to enrich each other. It's very much in the same spirit of his seemingly impossible attempt at reconciliation between pure reason/logic and empiricism--part of how he wound up with his metaphysic of ourselves as noumina who experience ourselves and the world around us as phenomina, all nested in Noumina.

I love how compatible your thoughts are with his way of thinking and I love how it makes a beautiful sense of time, without beginning or end, and one where the concept of divine purpose actually seems to make sense (something the church fathers never quite managed).