Thanks for your answer, I will follow your suggestion and read more about epistemology.

Unfortunately I'm a "Sciences" kind of guy and the thing I desire the most is the truth, an experience for me is only worth having if it has some value, some purpose, of course I like to feel pleasure and be happy, but that is not at all what I want or need from life, it seems that what I want from life is something that I can't have at all.

Unfortunately I don't think the will to live conquers skepticism at least applied to me, I've suffered enough in this life and if I can't find the meaning in it, something true that makes it worth it, I really don't have desire to keep on living