Utopia and Dystopia: Human Entropies
In some ways I can relate to the nihilistic conclusions you come to, although I think that is only one of possible conclusions to come to. This would include those in response to the various arguments of yours in this thread and others. Personally, I prefer to keep an open mind because at this stage I have not come to any ultimate conclusions. However, I realise that you have come to your present conclusion because it is based on the way in which you see truth, which is a fair measure. But the problem which I see is in the practical applications for life.
I know that your underlying philosophy is the position of egoism. In a sense, I can see the value of this as being about seeking to fulfill our own needs, and I am sure that this involves the instinctual ones. Personally,I am aware of the way in which I do this on a daily basis. You may be speaking important truth to people who are more caught up in the day to day following of a group.
Nevertheless, I would say that one of the limitations of the underlying nihilism which you have been presenting in this particular thread is that it is does not present a picture which allows for much scope for practical application. I realise that there are not any simple answers to the ways living. In particular, I would say that Christianity, from which I have a family background, tended to place the emphasis on the life after this one as the source of happiness. I can see the problem of this. In addition, there were many wars in the name of particular religious beliefs, as well as persecution of witches and others who challenged mainstream morality and lifestyles.
The point I would wish to make is that one still needs to find meaning on a daily basis rather than simply thinking about death. I do think that death can be something to inspire living rather than giving up. I say that coming from the perspective of having friends who committed suicide. I am certainly not wishing to suggest hope, in its shallow aspect. One book that I have read is 'Suicide and the Soul' by James Hillman, in which he sees the suicidal gesture as the confrontation with despair as a source for transformation.
I realise that you are probably not suicidal and neither am I at the present time. However, I think that the philosophy of nihilism is one which could lead in this direction, especially if a person is experiencing extremely difficult life circumstances. So, what I am saying is that it is important to see the possibility of transformation in the face of the abyss of despair rather than the just the goal of death. I do believe it is possible to juggle the ideas of death as the inevitable peace alongside the actual creativity of the struggle of life. I think that nihilism needs to engage with despair rather than simply stating it as a conclusion.