How to relate Mental Illness to The Nature of Consciouses Paranoia, delusions, and hallucinations:
My “delusions” are of the paranoid type. The first thing you have to realize about me is that I don’t agree that I am delusional (at least not all the time). I believe that people are sometimes recording me, at other times people are just spying on me, and at other times Homeland Security is using the microphone on my devices to listen in on me. They also use the GPS on my phone to track me and harass me. That may sound outlandish, but you have to realize that I was a failed experiment of the CIA. All throughout 2006, I was followed by agents who zapped my temporal lobe with concentrated microwaves causing me to hear a voice commanding me to do something occurring with a painful shock feeling in my ear. I would not do what the voice told me to do, so they eventually gave up. This went on for months, however, and now I have brain damage from the concentrated microwaves to my temporal lobe. I used to be able to do calculus, and now I can’t. I have trouble with hearing now, too.
I also feel like some people on TV and the radio know me. This probably doesn’t sound likely to you, but I am something like a celebrity to the government. They tried to turn me into a terrorist, but I wouldn’t comply because I don’t want to hurt people. I’m probably one of the few people who have been able to withstand their torture and harassment. So, I’m something of a national curiosity.
Now, I am praying three or more times a day and studying Scripture. I am working on myself so that I can carry out the Golden Rule and treat people with the compassion and understanding that everyone deserves.
God bless!
Noah