Are you asking me to play pretend? — Reece
Not at all. What I am suggesting is that you make a real commitment to something--a cause, a project, a reading program (whatever you like to read), politics, a job, serving others--anything, really that you can find an interest in, and pursue it.
Why do such a thing? Commitment, involvement, energetic work (even if mental work) is healthy, and it helps "stuff" fall into place--to some degree, anyway.
I have so many questions as to why, what or who put us here. It's scientifically clear we didn't evolve. — Reece
"Who put us here and why" is a pressing question that has bothered people for a long time. There are religious answers to this question; perhaps you would find them satisfying -- billions of people have found them so. Myself -- I think there is evidence we did evolve--that all life evolved--but that doesn't solve the problem of who put us here and why. Many people think that god put us here through the process of evolution, and the 4 billion year story of life on earth is the story of creation told in minute detail.
We are the only species that isn't natural to this planet. — Reece
Whether we were created or evolved, we belong here. We are natural to the planet, and we are natural in ourselves. Now, "humans" tend to be rather hard on the rest of creation -- careless, exploitative, wasteful, etc. -- but that's just us. We are a very mixed bag of good and bad characteristics. Some people are a bit nicer than others, and on the whole we behave reasonably well towards each other, except when we don't.
I adamantly refuse to speculate, assume or believe in insufficient 'knowledge' that doesn't lead anywhere. — Reece
That's fine, but in order to discriminate between knowledge that does, and does not lead anywhere, you yourself have to be extremely knowledgeable. You might want to focus on getting more knowledge.
The only thing I can think of is to try imagine there is 'greater good' at work, because in the end we're all slaves to our own society. — Reece
Sorry, but that's a non-sequitur. If the only thing you can imagine is that there is a greater good at work, then it simply doesn't follow we are slaves to our own society. We aren't slaves, we are participants. Humans are social beings, and we can't exist apart from society. Someone has to feed us and change our diapers when we are infants, and as we grow older we need to be reared to learn how to take care of ourselves and each other.
Focus on the idea of the greater good.
You know it's an issue when the basic necessities for survival come at a cost. — Reece
Of course the basic necessities come at a cost. Birds can not raise their young without a cost to insects and worms. Whales can not exist without a cost to fish. Our existence comes at a cost too. There is a absurdly complex web of costs and benefits that is too complicated for any one person to grasp.
We don't have the freedom of choice. We all have to go to school, we all have to work or contribute in someway. Where's the 'wild' aspect in our 'civilized' way of life? There isn't one. — Reece
If you think going to school limits your free choice, try never going to school, never learning how to read and write, and never learning how to exist as a 'civilized' person if you think you have no freedom of choice. The more resources you can bring to the concerns of the day, the more freedom of choice you have.
I hated some of the jobs I worked at, over the 40-odd years of my work life. I really felt like if I had to do such and such a job for the rest of my life, I'd rather be dead. But... bad jobs or not, having money of your own (even if not a lot) gives you much more freedom than not having any money at all of your own.
And some of the jobs I had were good jobs that I really enjoyed doing, and I got paid to boot. But don't expect fulfillment to come from most of the jobs you might have. It would be nice if that's what happened, but don't hold your breath. But... having an income is a very good thing, and it generally takes having a job to produce an income.
Right, there's not much wildness in one's ordinary life -- but you can resist, if you want to. People do find ways to step out of the more or less controlled aspects of life, to experience some "wildness".