Do you want God to exist? To add onto further remarks relating to the topic at hand:
The desire for some type of god concept requires that we put some value into it. In order for us to desire the good, the good has to be desirable. I was reading Bertrand Russell a few days ago and, while discussing relationships and love, described the following scenario:
You are on a boat near the coast during a sunny day. You appreciate the beauty of the coast and enjoy the pleasure you derive out of the view. As such, you desire the coast. This is one part of love. However, if the boat hits the rock in rough waters and you find yourself in the ocean, your desire for the coast becomes something different. The coast now becomes an object of desire of an entirely different nature: safety. The previous desire and appreciation for the coast is now entirely gone, now only concerned with what the coast can offer us: relief from fear and the knowledge of safety.
When we desire certain things, like a friend or a partner, we can desire both of these aspects (practically all relationships have them), but the one built primarily on safety seems problematic. Imagine that I have no friends and I desire a friend. The question to ask is: when I am looking for a friend, am I searching for someone to "protect" (validate) me or am I finding someone whose personality and company I enjoy? In other words, do I actually want a friend, a unique individual whom I relate to, or do I want someone to entertain me, comfort me whenever I feel down, and effectively serve as an echo chamber for my thoughts and ideas?
I turn this notion to God. Do I want God to exist? I do not know. On one hand, I want certain things that a god concept traditionally offers (of course, logically speaking, most of these things do not automatically follow from the philosophical conception of the classical theistic god, but that is beside the point). So, in a sense, I want God to exist. But do I really want God to exist, or I am I just projecting a being that serves my desires? Immortality? Inner peace? Purpose on a cosmic scale? Alleviation of guilt? The notion that everything will turn out alright in the end, no matter how bad it gets? A permanent and always present being who is always there so I am never alone? I get all of this and more from theism. This is nice, but perhaps too nice- nice in the way it would be nice if everyone loved me, entertained me, knew how great I was, and had their lives revolve around my own. It is the desire to be coddled. While there is nothing inherently wrong with this desire and being coddled from time to time is probably important to us, being coddled constantly seems off to me.