Why I no longer identify as an anti-natalist I can't relate to any of that. My job is roofing, and people often tell me I'm crazy for the recklessness of what I do. Maybe I will fall off someday, that will suck. I usually tell people that I'm an optimist, if I fall off then half way down I'll be all like "well, so far it's been alright, the rest should be fine". I'm only the least bit worried at about three stories up. One story I can land a jump from (I've done it), two stories I may hurt myself, three stories could be fatal. Double the distance of the fall, quadruple the force. I really never think about falling though, and am not really the least big scared, I'm just used to it. That's how I am about death in general, I'll worry about it when it's imminent.
Fairness doesn't apply to life itself, it's an evaluation of judgment, and behavior, not the world. The world is neither fair or unfair, people are. I don't experience such an assault, and the person torturing themselves with negativity, threats that aren't imminent, and unreasonable expectations is less masochistic than the person that takes everything in stride? Yesterday buddy at work told me that he missed working with me, I'm always so upbeat and happy. I said that there's enough bullshit and negativity in the world for me to be adding to it. I like to keep things light and avoid unnecessary stress.
I don't particularly enjoy very much, really, at least not a whole lot more than anything else. I am generally bored, and unengaged, with distractions, or doing absolutely nothing. It's why meditating, waiting places, doing exercises and things don't really bore me more than most things do. I think that music is probably my favorite thing, and always increases my vitality. I really don't think that it would be all that difficult to live without modern distractions though, they aren't all that great to me. I would miss music, but that's about it.