I'm actually 33 in seven days, lol.

My and her mom lives up the road, but my sister won't speak to her and hasn't in like a year. Her dad lives in New Brunswick, and has like fifteen kids, doubt that he cares. I don't think she even remembers him.

My Dad is here helping me, but she isn't his responsibility.

Haven't we gorged ourselves enough on the tree of the knowledge of good and evil?

Judging and evaluating constantly without paying attention surely has no drawbacks.

Etymologically the word "existence" means "to stand out" as in, to be distinct from other things. I've liked this view for some time, simply because the implication is that anything that can be named, distinguished, or shown to be distinct from other things exists, whereas if something doesn't exist, then there never was anything there to not exist in the first place, as no true distinction could even be drawn.

We do learn by making leaps of insight, of course. Funny thing about that, about twisting science data to support a paradigm! See, the idea is, that we gradually learn and get better at things, because neurologically new behavioral patterns cause new neural structures to form, or different neurons start communicating and gradually moving closer together, the more you do it.

So, they had these rats, and they were recording them getting better at mazes and such, and their neural activity, and the data made it appear as if they were getting gradually better because they generalized it over time. Truth was of course, that they were clearly having insightful moments that instantaneously made them better in some respects at what they were doing, and they would continue like that until another epiphany.

Enchantment is dangerous because it's happiness or elevation about something. This makes it conditioned by and attached to things. It's temporary, and waxes and wanes with confidence and hype. Doubt is the mortal enemy as happiness depends on not damaging certain ideas.

Similarly to depression, or sadness, we all understand that it's conditioned by things, and is thus temporary, and when it doesn't seem to be conditioned by anything, is also often when it doesn't seem to be temporary either.

Enchantment is the easiest way to be happy, but it will be cyclical, and impermanent.

You know the truth of why therapy works. Because you think it does, and someone nice that you think is competent doesn't react badly to the things you're ashamed of, and do, and think you are and such.

Truth is, that you can make someone fall in love with you by asking each other fifty deeply personal questions, answering honestly, and responding positively. It's pretty easy to convince people that you're the greatest that ever lived, because of how little faith they have in others... and judge the quality of others based on points of ideological agreement, and personal tastes.

No... I'm afraid that it's nothing you haven't already heard a million times before... that's why it's hardly worth saying in the first place. You're not going to think of something new. Fine some secret, get an aha moment, or in any way think and suppress your way out of it.

It won't be finding something new, it will be breaking down and accepting something you already know.

Misery breeds company, no matter how happy you are. No one is truly happy in a miserable world. I think that when you're truly happy, then everything becomes about everyone else, because they're all such downers...

When you don't know anything about something then you give someone else's opinion.

I'd respond the best way, with the most greatest quote of all time, from the beginning of the symposium. "There was a time when I was running about the world, fancying myself to be well employed, but I was really a most wretched thing, no better than you are now."

If that doesn't endear them to you immediately, I don't know what will.

I was attempting tact and diplomacy, not to imply that trans people are wrong... but the question is whether it's right or wrong to identify people by their biological sex or not... don't worry, no one is delusional about that.

Going to a doctor to ask about transition often involves some mockery, like giving you hormone tests, or physical exams and assuring you of your sex.

No one lets you forget about that, I'm sure. It's about something other than that, and no one is denying the obvious, or they wouldn't be getting body modifications in the first place. It's difficult to look at yourself in the mirror without seeing a monster sometimes... but I'd much rather be the monster than the scared victim.

As for the importance of qualifying "female" before stuff, well what relevance is that? What possible positive connotation could that have? Are people suddenly generally considering female professionals more adept than male ones? It just looks like a fucking warning.

Oh yes! Many! With lots of possible variables.

The main cause is fairly simple, but what to do about it, and how to make it better rather than worse is a little more complex. Almost everyone is bound up to their other side, and have lots of imbalances. The body is fairly simple, just make all the weight go through the joints, and not get cut off. The muscles just bull themselves tightly on to the bone, in order to maintain structural integrity, as it were. So all that is important is keeping form, basically. Only, when you're all fucked up, as most of us are, you gots to take some drastic measures.

People can hold great postures standing up, but then when they bend over, they lean over, and hinge their weight at the hips in one of many ways. This hinging lengthens some muscles, and contracts others. A big one, which is what I did, was basically lift the opposing leg you're leaning over with. I'm all fucked up in all kinds of ways, but like, I said, I'm more sink or swim measures. See, all of that yoga has gave me pretty good physical awareness, and I can feel the tension, and places where things are bound up, so's that I just force a release, and see what happens. When you start to lengthen one side too much, and shorten the other one too much, you'll start to flex muscles in your neck, mainly, to hold the weight from hurting you, basically, from pulling too much on a nerve, probably for that reason, I figure. So, that giving me more movement between my shoulder blades, and widening my shoulders (people have told me that I'm getting thinner, but I've actually put on like fifteen pounds) also widened my lower back quickly.

Then, if I can't contain my lower abdomen, then that puts too much work on the lower back, which now has more movement range than it probably ought to. I sleep on my stomach, and like eating a lot and I'll lose structural integrity in my lower right ribs, and under my left bottom shoulder blade, and that combined with containing my core less cause I'm all stuffed, all makes my lower back contract too much when I'm sleeping... something like that...

What do you care about? Being right, and telling everyone, or others? Telling people true things isn't always helpful, especially if they're on the verge of figuring it out themselves. If they figure it out, then they discovered, and learned something new. Even if it isn't something they'd like, it still feels good. Figuring something out after someone told you, especially if they were a dick about it, means conceding something to someone, maybe someone you dislike.

Identities are not things where there are clear definitions, or boundaries, meaning that what's attributable to them varies wildly from one individual to another. No one really has access to the essence of things. I'm not suggesting that therefore nothing is true about them, or that they can't be discussed and used. Only, that they will often be used badly, with irrelevant, inflammatory, and discriminatory attributes. We're never super scientists meaningly only the facts.

So, two points. Being right isn't always what's most important -- and it's easy to be wrong.

I'm too dumb for that. I'm better at manual labor.

It was fine though, I had to go in since I got most of the tools and ladder, but when I got there I told buddy about it (incidentally, he also hurt his sciatic just before I did the first time, when we first came back). I showed up, and said I was hurting, and they were like "so are you going home then", and I was all like, "nope, I'll just be shitty".

Feeling a lot better though now. Not like I hurt it working, I hurt it lay around and not working enough, eating too much, and things. Same thing that happened last time, I ate a bunch of pastry stuff, and slept. Then woke up like that. No more doing that...

You're telling me. Hurt my sciatic nerve again a couple days ago... too much down time... can't someone lay in bed eating pie all day and suffer no adverse effects? Wtf world? Seriously though, like body builders will eat up to like 12,000 calories some days... but I can't eat like 4... in pie?

I don't sleep right, so being all full and sleeping hurts me.

Gotta go to work now... hopefully it just warms up and it's fine. The pain levels are pretty high.

Pffft, I'm like Marvin from Hickhiker's guide.

Yeah, but I like the abuse.

"Most people are this kind of garbage. The average person is way worse than me in these regards. Normal people are so wicked, dumb, deceitful, and dangerous."

The "other" really takes a shit kickin' in some of our heads, doesn't it? What an abusive relationship...

It's quality over quantity.

Beat far cry primal. Well, you know, I beat the main story and did most of the side quests, like 75% complete.

Got Witcher 3 the other day, good walmart sale on it. Kind of a slow start... feels like its going to be story heavy.

I like far cry primal a lot, even though it's basically the same thing as far cry 4, but in the stone age. I was born in the wrong age. I wish that I lived ten thousand years ago or something.

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