Its not racist, its a observation. There are plenty of examples of the differences of their culture compared to other cultures.

that depression is nature's way of forcing a person to change certain beliefs about themselves, the world or reality at large and actions that may come from those beliefs. One has been "walking the wrong path" and nature is making one backtrack and realize they took a wrong turn somewhere. — Tzeentch

holy fucking shit that is some deep shit. Like wow. and it applies to myself because I am mindlessly going to college because my parents want me to even though I am paying for it,

Thank you all for the warm welcome and I will address a few of your points.

I believe people should look at who they envy, and strive to be like them

A deeper meaning in the context of my friend is that he dedicated himself to his field, and became very successful at only 19 years old. It does not matter what field I pick, I will envy anyone who has dedicated themself to that field and who has become successful at it.

I envy a successful real estate agent
I envy a successful classical pianist
I envy a successful plumber
I envy a successful business owner
etc....

The way I see it, It does not matter what field you pick (to an extent). If you dedicate yourself to it and become successful, I believe that I will find value and prosperity and a sense of being fulfilled if and only if you dedicate yourself to succeeding in that field.

Now don't get me wrong, my stoic self knows that most people who chase success fail, and that im not guaranteed to succeed, however most people are just....most people. Ive been told and am aware that my mindset already puts me ahead of at least 90% of people, as I always seek improvement, and want to know what I am doing wrong, whether its at the gym, or at my job. I care about all my mistakes and I want to be the best I can be.

My mindset is like a religion and I see whatever it is I want to do as an ultimate sacrifice. it goes like this

>Am I producing the desired result
>If the answer is no, then there is something about the process that I am doing that is wrong.

Like if I walk into chipotle and immediately say "fuck you" my burrito won't get made
But If I change "the process" and walk in with a smile and greet them nicely, they might give me extra steak.

If you change the process, you change the result, and you get extra steak in the process.

Now before I dedicate my self to anything, I want to make sure I pick a career that can provide me with everything I need. Thats why I want to do real estate.

I can feel socially fulfilled and know a lot of people
I can make good money and provide for myself and have a virtually limitless potential.
I can also show people cool homes all the time and negotiate with people

It seems a lot more fun than a 9-5 job. Real estate seems to offer a whole package of cool stuff for one job.


So to answer @baden 's "why do you want to be like your friend?" question, I want to be like any successful person, by dedicating myself to something and becoming successful.

And to answer fooloso4's question, I intend to be successful so I can provide for myself.


Sorry to be very elaborate and write paragraphs, but doing so helps me aligns my own thoughts.