Is It Possible to Become Actively A-Political? I suppose that, rather than give a rather recondite discursive analysis of the motivations behind The Anarchist Library's tacit support for Individualists Tending toward the Wild, making a rather pronounced jest by offering the pretense of engaging within a conversation about Herbert Marcuse's One Dimensional Man, pointing out that it seems rather doubtful that the author of the blog, The Charnel-House, has anything to do with my predicament, utilizing information by offering commentary on the phenomenon of "dual consciousness" in the former Soviet Union, or making any snide remarks in relation to Jean Baudrillard's interpretation of the Pop Culture phenomenon of the collective fixation upon what's "cool", I ought to just continue to explain my situation.
Though there was a certain Anarchist who may call to mind Tiqqun's Theory of Bloom whom I did both get into a dispute with and take said dispute too far, as we are on good terms now, I don't see why that should be a concern of anyone else's.
As an Anarcho-Pacifist, because Pacifism is wildly unpopular within the Anarchist movement, and peace the peace movement has a general aversion to collaborating with people who formerly almost attempted to create their own ideological sect, effectively an Anarchist equivalent of Communization, so as to remain politically engaged, I could only convince the Anarchist movement to be more welcoming. This, however, is just simply impossible, as, in order to do so, I would ultimately have to convince the Black Panther Party to revise the variant of the diversity of tactics that they adopted.
In the general course of my going about and doing things otherwise, I had also attempted to participate within the independent music industry and, though I do still play music, as I did formerly find myself within a dispute with kind of a clandestine party, which I have since put to rest, I do tend not to get on so well with kind of a lot of people in the scene, as the way things tend to go is that you're in when you're in and you're out when you're out, because of the many circumstances of my life, I am just kind of de facto "out".
What there, then, leaves for me to do is to study Philosophy. As certain Liberal academics can be so inclined to advance a kind of patrician Mentalism and others an effective deliberate indifference, and I am kind of an uncanny sort of person who lives within the place of schizophrenia of Capitalism and Schizophrenia, I often find that, by that they know all too well that I know all too well it is they who have cultivated an intellectual culture so as to marginalize and isolate people like me, though I do occasionally try to engage them in meaningful erudite conversation, they're often mostly interested and engaged in just kind of making a quite deliberate attempt to bar me from the university. Within the intersection of Philosophy and Law, there are some people who have been making an attempt to substantiate human rights, which I do think is a noble cause, but one that I would only disrupt, and some right-wing intellectuals who have kind of an unsettlingly favorable fascination with Carl Schmitt. Aside from all of them, there are left-wing intellectuals, who, in so far that they are only so taken by certain kinds of revelry on the part of the Anarchist community or a lot of rather high-flown philosophy on the part of the ultra-Left, I do get on with well, but those who are only so taken by it are all too few and far between. There is only one other party left, being Critical Theorists. What I'm trying to get across to a Critical Theorist is that, though I do have a habit of being fairly particular and elaborating at length, I don't really have too much of a reason to outside of my life at the university or my creative endeavors in so far that they wouldn't leave me as sort of an implicit focal point in the beaten way of political critique, especially since there is no reason to, as people only mistake that I am often to the point, perceptive, justified, and correct for some kind of sanctimony because of a general prejudice against Pacifists, and I would kind of prefer to engage within the realm of "pure theory" rather than make an attempt to commit myself to any form of political praxis. This idea that people have that I am of a rival school of thought which poses some sort of existential threat is not only completely unfounded, but also indicative of that their weltanschauung has failed not to succumb to some form of cult pathology or another.
Being said, social clubs can only ever be reflective of society and I'm ultimately just trying to generate a depiction of my person that is to my liking or, at the very least, to create a situation for myself where I just don't have to think about one at all.
Addenendum:
I'm just talking to myself as if I were talking to someone else now, but the only way that I can drop out is if the aforementioned Critical Theorists are willing to view me favorably enough so that I am let to do so, which I, in the general course of my life, am capable of bringing into effect, but that much of the internet seems to have an unwitting disfavorable depiction of my person does pose a certain predicament. I always leave places eventually and well when I can, but I'd often be able to leave them sooner if people would just accept that I very clearly understand what generally goes on and am often willing to take the many paths of least resistance. It's whatever, though.
I don't know. It's all good. I'm just kind of rambling.
Postscript:
I'm still just talking to myself as if there is an audience unto my own mind, but, I don't know how much you know about the service industry, but, being on the de facto outs is just the sort of thing that makes it kind of difficult to survive in it. Seeing that most other jobs are kind of temporary, it is kind of contingent upon the general course of my life to go to the university, and, so, though my going on like this is born in partial madness, there is a kind of reasoning behind it.
It's whatever, though. Now that I've explained this, I can kind of just carry on however. I feel pretty chill. All is well, y'know?
It's just this all of this has me, again, wondering, despite that I already have made what amends I either can or should, are all just somehow localized. Though, in good faith, I shouldn't like to make any digs or anything, what I've found of people operating under a certain degree of hubris is that it is often better just to get everyone else to figure out how to cope with whatever social predicament you see that can be circumnavigated than it is to even attempt to get anything through to them whatsoever. Seeing that we've gone kind of global, here, though, I feel like this is kind of absurd. Originally, I just kind of wanted to start a band, get only so into left-wing political philosophy, and land a job at a coffee shop. It's whatever, though, I guess. You've just gotta let the world become however it does.