No no no I don't dislike the fact that I'm me. It's not a dread of being me that I feel. I just wanna know more about this existence

I'm definitely always me. I'm always the same self. But I'm curious why that is. Why was I born a boy of a specific family? Why wasn't I born another species of animal? I don't know about the other question. I don't have any videos of me as a 10 year old but I have pictures of childhood. I hardly remember being that kid but at the same time I do. I'm constantly changing.

everyone else can't be me. They don't see how I see or think what I think. At the same time I can't experience how anyone else perceives life in this way. Why is it that way?

Why am I me means, why am I this person as opposed to being any one of 7 billion plus human beings on earth? Out of everyone I was born here as this person. It's mysterious that I'm not anyone else. I don't know why this is the being that I am.

Interesting but if my existence is uncaused... Why do I let someone who forced his religion on me rule my life? Because I'm afraid he'll hurt me if I disagree with him... Why is that my existence? I don't care about his god

I think your argument encompasses the idea that "I am God" with I being each one of us.

Everything under the human experience constitutes philosophy. Drugs or not, a real philosopher would absolutely face first gobble up any opportunity to face a question like this. Good day sir.

move along dude

1. Yes getting along with my friends, I can do that
2. We pay for our own meals
3. I can talk any topic and not get offended
4. Oh boy, that's toasty. I'd be surprised. But I'd go with the flow.
5. Nah my anxiety isn't that extreme.
6. I don't know. I haven't shared a space with someone who isn't abusive. If that changed, it would be a new experience for me.

Wouldn’t you agree though that you already live by bowing to the common rules that the society you live in sets for all its members? In a sense, your true household is that society...

If you want to proscribe your household into the confines of your particular domicile, then, in order to follow your own rules there, you must either have no housemate, or have one willing to follow your rules. — Todd Martin

Well even if I have to follow society's rules it's not like all of society can live in my apartment. I'm talking about private life. I hate when my private in-home life is governed by a roommate or parent. So I would be happy enough having a singular private apartment. I'm less concerned with the rules of exterior society because all it really is is being courteous to strangers and not committing crimes, and I can follow both of those rules without problems. I only have a problem if someone is breathing down my neck in what's supposed to be my privacy, having expectations about managing my personal life.

In addition I wouldn't force anyone to live by rules set by me because I would feel like I've become the villain I aim to escape. I would hate myself if I bent someone to my whim.

My situation began when I discovered Buddhism. My reason to go on living is life itself. But I cut out the drama. Fighting with other people, striving for wealth and fame, living up to expectations, having expectations of my own, I just got rid of all that. It's useless baggage. Even for someone who has several mental difficulties from childhood abuse I manage to stay as happy as possible by making life as simple as possible. When people make me angry, I restrain myself. I don't get involved. You might say I don't stand up for myself but I feel picking fights over disagreements or petty provocation just causes unnecessary drama. I prefer to chill out and meditate or watch something related to philosophy or science. I used to be suicidal because I was in the military after my abusive relationship and it was a very stressful environment. What kept me going then was basic animal instinct. Survive at all costs, even if my only reason was survival itself. Nowadays petty things like money and drama seem like ridiculous things to suffer over. I could never panic over disputes or overreact, it's pointless. Life drives me to live and happiness is my goal. There are some other things that keep me interested in life too but I'll keep them secret for a while.

To me, the perfect question would be, what is the best way to live?

This is what I think is the problem every creature on earth is faced with solving. Many different groups of people constantly disagree about how everyone should live because they think everyone else has it wrong. Since most animals don't have the mental capacity to ponder a question like this, they simply do it. They live in the best way because they already know how. Birds build a nest, hatch their chicks, teach them to fly, and those birds grow up to build a new nest and repeat the process. Wolves travel in packs and eat prey. Ants build colonies and sustain them. Simple. Humans, on the other hand, have a problem. We have free thought. We have imagination. We can ponder this question, and so the answer is ever changing. Society is always evolving. We haven't come up with a perfect way to govern. There are wars over beliefs. When humans try to figure out what's the best way to live, there's complete pandemonium. They can't agree on one thing and do it for eternity, there's constant change. Constant disagreement.

For me, the best way to live is how I want to live and it doesn't include anyone telling me how to do it. My best life is completely my decision. That may be anti establishment or whatever but when I have to live with someone's house rules or try to please someone else I'm miserable. When I get to be a loner and make my own rules, life is pure bliss. Maybe it's a selfish rationale but it's the happiest one. The only thing that could make it better and include other people is if I had a group of friends that I don't share a house with and we can go out and do activities and I can come back home and sit alone in peace. That kind of life is pure magic. I'd prefer that over the hectic rat race and the family rules and having manners and respecting the elders of the house just because they're old.

I don't think your concept of human robots is possible or realistic in this world. All living beings have consciousness. Animals have consciousness. Therefore humans have consciousness. I don't understand what you mean by devoid of consciousness. I have consciousness, or else I wouldn't have thought to come here and find this and think of a reply. Any human being can do that if they wanted to. Unless they can't read yet or have a disability that prevents them from being able to, but not knowing how to read or having a disability doesn't take away the fact that the human is conscious.

The argument for being drunk is a curveball but unconsciousness doesn't make one a robot. Just as everyone has consciousness, everyone has unconsciousness. The unconscious mind is full of all the information that a person is not conscious of, for example, their drunken stupor or sleepwalking. Just because they don't know they're sleepwalking doesn't mean they're a robot. There's no rational or logical programming to make someone sleepwalk. It's just a symptom of a mental disorder. Plenty of people have mental disorders that lead to all kinds of symptomatic behavior but they're not robots. They're alive and they have individuality.

Working and learning and studying does not make one a robot. I do those things. I do repetitive tasks in a factory with conveyor belts, doing the same thing all day without getting tired or breaking a sweat or getting bored. Still, that does not make me a robot. It means I have very high amounts of stamina, patience, strength, fortitude, and motivation. I can focus on a task and do it for 10 hours because I enjoy doing it. I'm still a consciousness, a human being, not some artificial intelligence. I also spend hours reading, learning, watching philosophy lectures, meditating, and self reflecting. That doesn't make me any less human.

So I would like more elaboration on why you believe humans who do hard things and learn about nature, reality and inventions are robots without consciousness. These ideas don't make sense to me without more context and clarification. Learning and working are things every animal and human does. All of those things are conscious. If I know I am conscious and everyone on this forum including you are conscious, what makes a person devoid of consciousness? What do you constitute as a "real" human? Because I think of the 7 billion plus humans on earth, all of them are equally as real as you and me. So what constitutes a "fake" human? Why does working and learning detract realness?