So rationally I found that learning to code would be beneficial for me to earn more money and it also seems interesting to be able to do it from a distance.

The thing is when I think of coding and when I study it, I get this tension in my throat. People could call this anxiety, but I don't like labels. I have had the same tension when I played online poker for a whole day, I also made the most I ever made in poker, but I didn't follow through the days afterward because this tension repelled me.

It's really unpleasant and the tension can be very strong. My question is, is this a sign of my body/subconscious/universe, that I just shouldn't do this?

Or would you say there is another perspective on this and that I should just push through this very uncomfortable feeling?

Should I listen to my emotion, what my body is telling me? or push through this and listen to my rationale and try to change this feeling/hope it goes away?
Advice much appreciated.