I’ve said this before. I don’t think it is either healthy or productive to ask for opinions about something that concerns you on a forum that is full of ... well, people who likely have - at best - a passing knowledge of this area.
Seek out psychotherapy. Don’t stick with the first psychologist that you meet. Be patient.
That’s it. GL — I like sushi
I would guess that the most fundamental cause is stress, with perhaps a genetic predisposition that stress tiggers. — praxis
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