have you read Ligotti's book or the pessimists? It's depressing stuff, but I found comfort in it. — Jeremy Murray

No but I did philosophy as my degree and Existentialism was my favourite, with Political Philosophy second, I would say, for very different reasons. I remember eagerly waiting the year it would be studied proper and when it came it did not disappoint.

Yes Camus said that about Sisyphus; they pretty much all were saying the same thing weren't they, from different angles, as per my comment above, to embrace the absurdity of life through living authentically.

As I wrote in my reply to @Moliere this was well and good while things were working out for me through that hard toil of 'living authentically' but when life hit reset for me does not feel fair, while others still get to carry on their own paths unfettered, and I am once again disillusioned.

I suppose that is the absurdity part, which I am not accepting.

Btw why do @ mentions of users seem to work for others but not me?

I'm sorry to hear. I often wonder if I could go through another deep dive these days since it's been so long. I'm not sure where to go from there -- though then that seems to be indicative of the mood. If we knew what to do to fix it then obviously we'd do it, but thus far...

deep dive — Moliere

Deep dive you mean a life downswing? I usually see that term these days used just to mean heavily researching a topic.

Yeah, that's what I meant.