I found myself playing with Nietzsche and ranting about Hololive idols last month (I was noticed by one of them and I was starstruck). In short, what I'm saying here (I think) is that people tend to use idol events (concerts, steams, and stuff) with the intent of escaping from their daily suffering (which is very close to Schopenhauer's aesthetics). I was questioning the wisdom in this view. I thought it would be better if art served not as an escape but as a reminder of the greatness of our life, our human experience.

I can see me ranting about a "misuse of hypocrisy." It sounds dumb, but this relates to my idea of ad hoc truth which I may or may not have discussed somewhere. Simply put, I was saying that hypocrisy is unavoidable and necessary in our daily lives so we should just stay authentic to this. What an oxymoron: authentic hypocrisy.

Hmm I was also ranting about the "higher culture." Wonder what I meant... probably the culture of authenticity, acknowledgement, and respect? I was not suggesting a political system based on this culture to achieve some sort of peace and justice, but simply just a culture where people can better evolve intellectually and creatively.

I'm not sure, but I may also have ranted about Christianity here. If I was, then one might think that I was mimicking Nietzsche, but that's not the case. The Philippines is a widely Catholic country and so it follows that my family, peers, and relatives have a sort of affinity to Christianity. Even I myself do. But, welp, I found myself in unpleasant situations because of certain Christian values and behaviours that result from this, so I do vent about this quite a lot.

10:19 PM 19/01/2021

Today, I make quite a radical realization, one that could crumble and collapse the entire castles of some present teenagers. When it came to me, I was welcomed by a sadness that scolded me for my hypocrisy, one that dared pull me away from a seemingly innocuous comfort.

I am referring to idolatry. The term seems kind of off, so instead of forcing on it a new meaning, I will just coin a new term: idolness. I am referring to idolness. It is the most genius, most powerful weapon humanity had thus created: the power to powerlessness, to the consent to weakness. Humanity's hedonistic values had been given the Excalibur to vanquish the demon king! Tied beautifully in a knot by none other than her holiness Aphrodite, through her beauty and love, weakness had then been ignored. It had been treated as a sort of inescapable human condition, an inevitable and impossible challenge, the tall, three-meter thick iron wall that is the originator of tragedy. The appreciation of art, the passionate cheerfulness, and the intoxicating will to support, can be traced back to the veneration of these two values. I call those who possess these two values as "idols", our contemporary idols. The affirmers of these values, they are to be called "fans" or more generally, "consumers". The idol-fan dynamics as itself should be no harm to us, my friends, but we should tread carefully, for this is a tightrope that one trip can very easily lead to our fall to decadence. I have tripped, and I assume that you have as well, but together we shall climb back up and restart our adventure towards the higher type of idolization.

It is a basic instinct of humans to protect their ego. The acculturation of certain values had done some excellence and played some horrible tricks and sick jokes on humanity. One of which is the acceptance of weaknesses. Human began to think that weakness is not an obstacle, but a strength. Indeed, one can use weakness in all sorts of ways, but why as a virtue? Why not as an opportunity to overcome? Humans, if they are to practice holistic-love, are required by their conviction to overcome their weaknesses! Had their superiority complex numbed so much that they no longer wish to hate themselves? Had they lost their love for contempt? Where else should they use this enchanted sword that is the 'pagmamahal para sa paghamak' other than the self? Therefrom one will get to know the others one finds so contemptible. the love for such contempt should bring about more knowledge of oneself and others. It is an essential motivator for humans to strive for superiority, to actualize their Will to Power. The weak, with their knowledge of this, can very possibly claim their envisioned strength. Let's love our weakness as the origin of contempt! Let's celebrate our love as the source of all power! Let us use very wisely the weakness that we so posses! Let us not, however, confuse this overflowing love as the acceptance of weakness. The superior should love weakness not for acceptance, but acknowledgement! Let us tread our ropes carefully and not make such a silly slip. Let us be wary! The subtlety of the flavor is worrisome that one might think one is enjoying Häagen-Dazs Rum Tres Leches Ice Cream without knowing that it is poisoned. Let us refine out tastes and acquire the ability to differentiate this from that. Let's be careful!

Idolness had been used by the venerators of orthodox values as a weapon to combat the despicable emotions that our weakness arouses. They had stolen from us our precious Aphrodite and vandalized our higher culture. There is humor in hypocrisy, for all hypocrisy is done in deliberation, except for one kind: the ignorant-hypocrisy. It is when one's vain, dogmatic assertions fail to acknowledge the impossibility of a certain thing to be actualized precisely because of that very same assertion. It immediately discloses the rustiness of one's brain and one's irksome lack of character. I was angered by this when it came to my realization that my treasured hypocrisy encompasses such a pathetic thing, but I soon came to see it as overly humorous. I want to thank ignorant-hypocrites for this tragic comedy! They are to be appreciated as a masterful work of art! Their decadent attributes act as a sign for those striving for superiority, a sign that shows the exact direction one must avoid! Orthodox values should be scrapped just as it scrapped the values before it. "A person's trash is another person's work of art".

Let us not use idolness to ignore our weaknesses. Let us not pervert art into decadence. One must separate their hedonistic ethical practices from art. One must not starve oneself if one wishes to fill one's stomach. It's quite elementary. I found myself starving myself to observe some luxurious cuisine like some skinny dog not too long ago, and I now find the error. It is beautiful how I missed something so simple. Idolness allows for us, even we good people, to drop our guards and intoxicate ourselves with the unconscious, ulterior motive to ignore our weaknesses. Our rejection of suffering; of life; necessitates the freedom to forget our weakness. Such cowardice! There is no merit in ignoring it, it should be embraced tightly with both hands; it should be overcome! Let us use idolness, we good fans, as the great inciter of the higher culture and the mirror that will bare naked our whole body! Let us not wallow in our pity, let us celebrate our suffering!