I feel like everything has no meaning anymore, but not in a depressive bitchy way, for sure theirs a lot of people with a beautiful meaningful missions for the greater good or some bs like that, why would a care about the greater good if not for your own benefit?
Dont try to be the hero that saves the world, cause I know that you wouldn't save a world if it was for you to get worst, superman saves the world because he doesn't want to died, him or his loved ones, because if his loved ones die he would get sad, and he doesn't want to be fucking sad, so even him saving his family its not for them, its for him, so lets all be honest about our egoism yes? If superman can be egoist you can be, stop pretending you not.
So im a egoist motherfucker, Ok and I dont care, Ok. So what the fuck im I suppose to do? Be a fucking cunt to every one? Fuck no, you need to be licked, to have friendships or you go down in you little world alone and miserable, you dont want that, you want to be strong, proud, a great man, the problem is that every great deed, every great adventure, every great battle has already occur, every great man as already died, at least the ones I feel connected to, the great conquerers that made their dreams reality, the great sailors who discover the world, the great warriors who change a country fate, the great leaders that change the minds of endless crowds. All dead. We have a lot of great people now a days, sure, businessmen, politicians, athletes, scientists but its not the same, they dont have the virtue, the god like status that their predecessors had.
We still have fighters you say, the great Mike Tyson, Buakaw, Ali, Khabib, sure but what are they fighting for? Money and Glory? Like the gladiators of past? Fuck that. They build no country, they conqueror no nation, they just get rich and died stupid with brain damage. Im not undermining them, far from that, hard, tough, dedicated, brave men will always have my respect, I aspire to be like them. I just dont feel that their fight is worth it.
So if nothing matters and theres nothing achievable to do why not just fuck pretty women and do Coke until my nose falls, one thing im certain, I could do that to the end of days and be happy. Because you would be a fucking bitch with no self control if you go down that path. Theirs no great fight to fight over, sure, but thats no reason to be weak, to be a mindless hedonist Find a fight to fight, we all have one, the biggest and most important fight to have to win all the others, the fight with our selfs, our demons, our weakness, our misery. Dont fight to win, fight to kill, destroy, enslave all does petty emotions, once the war is won embrace them as new allies, they now know who rules, whos in command, rule with a firm hand over them cause they ill revolt if not, they are now yours to command and use, the pain, the anger, the envy are now your fuel, the reason you will thrive. But as conquerors we want our realm to be endless, forever growing, so find new enemy's to fight, theirs infinite pain for you to endure if you strong enough, you are the one who create the nations you will conquer, so make them huge almost impossible to win so when you do win them you can be proud and far stronger than you once were.