Thank you for the elaborate and very interesting reply. I will check out the link and will try to get back here at some point after doing more research.

please try to answer the main question if you have something to say.

I’m not dumb. Yes, I haven’t formally studied the subject of philosophy but I would argue that by having a point of view on the matter at all, no matter how nonsensical it may seem, is in fact engaging with philosophy. Also, I strongly disagree about how interesting my point of view is to me because it affects absolutely everything and is a way of thinking I personally haven’t been able to find previously. That isn’t to say no one else has come up with this way of thinking, but assuming someone has I would very much like to know what it is and what research has been made regarding it.

All that said, I did not come here to start an argument. I thought I would attempt to describe it in a way that is easily understood, which is why I tried posting this discussion here.