On anxiety. Sounds like a trip to Chaing Mai would do you good. If you haven't already intuited this; you wan’t to consualt experienced “travelers” and or “internationals” rather than “tour guides” and “tourists”. You’re probably looking at $2,000 U.S.D. max total, for a 1-3 month pilgrimage to Thailand. If you have an associates degree of any kind you can get a job teaching orphans or elementry school children English for 800-1,200 U.S.D. Per month, its hard to spend over 500 a month there. I highly reccomend a trip there before too much changes in southeast Asia.
I know a cycling group that can show you everything you need to know in Thailand if you like. Especially if you’re interested in Vegan diets, Running, Cycling, Climbing, or Swimming, they know where the real temples are.
I also know a few anti-human trafficking groups that operate over there.
After some trouble on from the deepweb I’m giving most of cyberspace a bit of a brake, but I can still refferance you to a few people.
PM me about it if you like.