So to you “ the meaning of life” is purely subjective and just a matter of opinion?
In other words... objectively the very idea of meaning doesnt exist?
If this is the case then we agree....
But if this isnt a nihilistic view or atleast an existential nihilistic view... then what is it??

Well it cercainly can at time, but not always... If you mean "feel meaningless" by sadness and depressive thoughts etc then yeah sometimes... but overall how i "feel" changes just like everybody else... Its not like i can "feel" meaninglessness... its not really a direct feeling... i can feel the "symptoms" of it like sadness... but to me meaning is a purely logical term and therefore not really something you can feel if you know what i mean