I'm afraid of losing life
I am also afraid.
I have lost a number of dear friends in the last few years and it is weird how they still live inside me.
Years ago, one of those friends said to me something like this:
"Once you pass the boundary, you won't be able to regret it happening because, uh, you are dead. So don't compare it to all those times when you experience regret. A bad decision at work. A sinful indulgence. A petty demand for a stupid thing. When you get rid of all the false comparisons, then you can slow down and stop rushing toward the the end you despise."