Religious experience has rendered atheism null and void to me I'll leave you all with one more insight before I go. After all I did come here to spread positive feeling and I do feel I owe it to the philosophical community, which provided me with an intellectually strict basis with which to begin to know God -- thus totally reinforcing my faith once I'd found it. That is, to be constructive here.
I found God (and thus, joy and fulfillment) when, and only when, I opened myself to it. That is, when I really embraced positive behaviour to connect with others. Often at my own discomfort. But I was determined to at least know that I tried my best and couldn't find God. That is, before I discarded the idea that gave many millions such a seemingly profound sense of joy, that deep down I knew I was just envious of. My point is, it takes work. You have to earn enlightenment. Otherwise, it would lack any meaning.
After years of laughing at religious people, and condescending them from way up on my high horse, I came to learn that I was no cleverer than any of them. Much stupider actually! Although I was a much more fluent communicator than most of these people, and my competence in debate was far more advanced... I had obsessively developed these skills to distract from my own insecurity.
These people were bright enough to simply know what is obvious to me now. They're wired correctly. They simply know what feels good and keep at it. They can see it without figuring it out. They know what's right without having to spend much time or effort justifying it. And really, it is so simple.
An example of my past intellectual delusion is that I used to think emotive language was for morons. Now I know better. I don't make the strongest arguments any more. But my viewpoint is far more contagious. And I'm far more loved for it.
So... try to be positive in your thinking and behaviour. Really try. Until you've learned these behaviours. And I'm sure you too will then see enlightenment. The mindstate that knows no definitive description.
Its just, some of us have learned to know better, while others are still searching. And I guess that's all there is to it.
Kind wishes to all.