For me, life is meaningful because it is temporary...

Obviously, if the afterlife is eternal I will have to put up with it... but I think all possible outcomes are bad.

I think whoever made up the notion of afterlife wasn't thinking very clearly, just scared of death.

So many aspects of the idea are just stupid.

I mean, most people who believe in an afterlife are negative about this life... but overall I think you've missed my point.

I think that ascribing to any particular philosophy is problematic because it means you have ready made answers before the question.

Generally, through the process of henosis, I have a particular approach to understanding founded on the unity of opposites that results from a realization of monad. This causes me to recognize that if conflict is arising I am at least partially wrong if not completely wrong, else it couldn't arise. This wrongness includes clarity of expression, so my immediate response is usually to understand their view and respond from there. This is made easier from a foundation of ataraxia or apatheia, whereas if I'm having difficulty accepting the other there is some hubris in me.

I think this general openness to engage is a function of sophrosyne, and a genuine pursuit of the truest truth results in eudemonia...

These are all general philosophical notions that apply to any genuine philosophical school, though, I think that determining the details based on a particular system is problematic exactly because it enters into a realm of abstraction and ceases to be necessarily practical.

Yet, I am not strictly practical, because I analyze my own behavior if I venture away from these things.

It depends what you mean by "mind"...

Certainly, if you mean the patterns of thought, they are observable by awareness... indeed, this awareness is the psyche. I would go so far as to suggest this is actually the very purpose of philosophy, to analyze the thought processes and see if they are valid.

If you mean something else, please clarify.

I think the mind likes these extreme labels, but functionally they are false.

Further, I think an emphasis on optimism actually causes pessimism because it isn't true... when you go on hoping and hoping for the best and it never comes your mind eventually clicks into the opposite and expects the worst.

For me, in regards to any afterlife, I think that if you can cause happiness independent of situation during life the same will be true if there is anything after death. Even if you end up in hell, eventually it'll just be how things are so at least after any initial shock you will be able to be happy. Conversely, in any heaven, if you have the propensity to be miserable it will be no different there once the experience becomes monotonous.

I think a more subtle issue with your question, though, is in its orientation towards future success... even in the afterlife you want to continue striving towards some perfect situation. This means that the current situation cannot ever be enough for you, you always want more. This is actually the basis for all misery, and of course the definition of happiness is being content.

I think this is the only real choice we actually have, whether to be content or miserable with what is so... so I do not envy your current psyche at all because it basically can't be happy as it presently functions.