I have a sickness over which I don't know what to do about. I've been deeply depressed for about 5-6 years. My life has been full of doubt and suffering.

I really am losing the will to live. I'm thinking about suicide too much lately. On top of depression, I have some kind of other mental illness. It used to be defined as schizophrenia; but, I think it's some psychotic disorder. Who knows, maybe it is schizophrenia, it doesn't matter. What matters is that I'm spiraling into a dark abyss.

Things have gotten so bad that I am doubting my own thoughts, as if they were foreign to my-self along with dreams that seem foreign to myself also.

I'm really suffering and am already in contact for help, and have been taking anti-psychotics (2 actually) for a good while.

What should I do?