It does when I think on it in a universal sense -- it's not like I know which way is what. That's sort of Kant's point: Keep on arguing which way you want, it'll be interesting, but it won't effect scientific knowledge and you'll never know which is what.

If Kant thought it worthy addressing philosophically then I have a hard time arguing determinism isn't even plausible in the manner you described.

Cool.

I wonder if someone who doesn't exist at all can question his own existence or non-existence?

I am not, therefore I don't think.

What difference would it make if I had not existed? To me, nothing; to others, a lot.

Any single on of us? Likely not too much. Maybe some people would be less happy - heck maybe they'd be happier, it's difficult to say.

I'd miss out on everything quite literally. But the universe does not care one way or another.

Thank you for your concern and friends tell me that I need to find somewhere else to live. It is not easy to find accommodation though and I have moved many times, including during lockdown. I am in Harrow at the moment, and apart from the gang culture I prefer it to South London as I was living in Tooting previously.

I think that the problem is that there is so much drug culture and the people in the house are caught up in this. I used to be drawn to subcultures, especially in Camden Town but there are some very rough people and they can become so aggressive. They are not like Aldous Huxley or Allen Ginsberg, using psychedelics for writing. They often committing crime to pay for their addictions and desperation when withdrawing from substances. There also so much drug induced psychosis or dual disgnosis.

Yep... time to move, I'd say. Best of luck and take care.