I would like to share to you my own personal religion that my depressive struggles has led me to. You don't have to agree with my religion if you don't want to. I just wish to share and express it:

I am undecided when it comes to the existence of god, the paranormal, the soul, and the afterlife. But I keep an open mind to these things and I really hope the eternal blissful afterlife of my dreams exists since this would literally be the greatest and most profound life to me since it would offer me the greatest and most profound degree of my inner light. I am here in this life to be happy and to enjoy my life. Thus, it would be quite unfortunate if I just died and that is it. Especially after all the horrible misery I have struggled through in my life. It would be quite unfortunate for all of us. But like I was saying, if we do live in a spiritual universe where the soul, god, and the afterlife exists, then god's holy light energy would literally be a quality of pure goodness, love, joy, happiness, and beauty within our conscious being.

After all, that is what the light energy of god is. It is literal goodness, love, joy, happiness, and beauty itself. Many people deny the existence of an actual quality of good and bad since most people think that good and bad are instead concepts or ideas. That is, nothing but words. But I think good and bad are something much more profound and powerful than that. I think they go beyond words. I think that having good and bad value in our lives is something that goes beyond words. That is, I think it is an actual quality rather than just a mere idea going through our minds. Good would have to be an actual quality like water. So, in order to have good value in your life, then that would be no different than needing actual water rather than just believing you have water in your life when you don't. But continuing on here. God's light energy of pure goodness within us would actually be our positive emotions rather than that of a saved sinner repenting to Jesus lest he be cast eternally into a lake of fire.

In other words, us being happy, having fun, and enjoying our lives is the light energy of god we need in our lives to truly make our lives good, beautiful, and worth living for. Without his holy light, then our lives are empty. It would be like being deprived of the sacred water of pure goodness in our lives. That, or we would be filled with spiritual darkness of pure badness, hate, misery, and despair. Now, if we are living in a purely naturalistic/secular universe where the soul, god, and the afterlife do not exist, then everything I have said would still apply. In other words, our positive emotions would still be the quality of goodness we need in our lives. But, this time, there would be no god, afterlife, or soul attached. This would even mean that atheists and skeptics, if this is truly the one and only life we have to live, cannot live good lives through the helping of others, self sacrifice, and making the world a better place as long as they were not happy, having fun, and enjoying doing so.

Lastly, I would call my worldview New Age Hedonism since it combines new age spiritual concepts with hedonism. New age spirituality is the idea of a god who would never condemn us to an eternal hell. This would be a truly all loving god who just wants us to be happy. Although, there are dark spiritual forces in this universe such as bad karma that takes away the inner light we need in our lives. So, it is up to us to avoid these dark forces and be as happy as possible. One of these dark forces would obviously be having a depressive mental illness. As long as you are someone who struggles with depression, then your life and conscious being is devoid of god's inner holy light and you would either have a very small degree of his light or none of his light at all. Thus, your life would have little to no good value. My own personal struggles with depression and misery in my life has led me to this worldview. It would be my own personal created religion.