Attempting to acquire absolute pitch Day 112. Ok so I guess I have entry level absolute pitch: I can now calibrate musical 'calculations' with respect to a core of mental images (mainly, the Ravel and Gimme Shelter), without feeling obliged to refer to a higher authority i.e. a physical image; and while it's a long way (see day 99) from battle-ready for parsing actual music, I can begin to theorise, albeit introspectively, about the nature and behaviour of the imagery.
I.e... theorise about the nature and behaviour of the introspection, which is soaked in folk-psychological theory about imagery and introspection.
What I gradually embraced and reinforced (if grudgingly, and assuming a growing debt of needed clarification) was talk of an image as an internal mental event, of the kind typically conceived as coinciding with a neural event conceived, in turn, as a physical trace or recording or representation of some external music not actually present. More specifically, I associated pitch-wise veracity of an image, increasingly closely, with an intuition of the vividness or clarity or realism or authenticity or solidity or immediacy or effortlessness of the image. Immediacy in the sense of directness of acquaintance, or absence of noise: not in the sense of rapidity of formation; on the contrary I got in the habit (see day 92) of either waiting patiently for an arrival or being prepared to "launch" a large number of (individually quicker) "flights".
An empirical question, I expect, is whether this kind of association, of perceived clarity with pitch-wise veracity, is well-founded. This might be the case if clarity resulted specifically from a forensic, causal connection between stimulus and image, as with (according to naive folk-semiotics at least) the clarity of a photograph or a sound recording. And if so, we might ask whether either or both of the clarity and the veracity are available with respect to relative (relational) as well as absolute (non-relational) pitch sensitivity; and which available kinds of clarity and veracity are associated. How, further, the abilities and their associations may vary among differently (from most to very least) gifted or trained musicians.
For example, my hypothesis of a conflict between development of absolute and relative sensitivity: perhaps clarity is more pertinent to the first. Perhaps clarity of an image is a requirement for correct recall of a pattern by untrained listeners. And perhaps an image of Gimme Shelter (intro) is clearest when truest because of its exhibiting of non-notate-able (and hence less readily transposed) patterns.
Whatever the empirical or theoretical merits of such a view, I've indulged it, and acquired a degree of skill in facilitating spasms of neural activity as though... well, partly as though recalling a stored image to a viewing area, and checking it for authenticity... but partly also as though conjuring or manufacturing such an image in situ (on stage in the viewing area), by the authority of one possessed of absolute pitch, and then subjecting it to a similar evaluation. The "as though" is effected by a rather thorough visual running commentary (of the recalling or the manufacturing) which matches the sound images to visual ones from e.g. the relevant youtube visuals, or my finger approaching the g4 on a piano etc. I.e., a folk-psychological narrative of phenomenal sound events is maintained by a (narrative of a) visual narrative.
Either way (imagined as recall or manufacture), clarity of an image upon "viewing" (or rather, "auditing") has become sought after as an indication of its veracity with respect to absolute pitch. This has created a variety of distinct navigational predicaments:
(A) Stage empty: thoughts have turned to music, but no ear worms are present. Free and able to call up any image, probably the Ravel, and to reject and re-order if not completely satisfied. The re-ordering may express a preference up or down, or it may not. I thought I noticed a drift (with increasing skill) towards not; but possibly that aspect of the successive improvement had merely become quicker and less conscious. While unsatisfied, also free to,
(B) call up an image of different music, but must then expect that the process (whether of manufacture or selection from pre-pitched alternatives) is influenced by the pitch of at least the last image from (A or C) however unreliable that pitch. (B) repeatable like (A). Satisfaction during (A) or (B) may lead to,
(C) consolidation-cum-testing: try an image of different music (possibly returning to that of A or D, if here from B). If tending to the view that the image is recalled whole from storage, one might hope to allow it to land according to its own 'gravity'. The landing place not being as expected relative to the previous image would in that case mean dropping or re-launching (C again) one of the two, probably the first. But on the contrary view i.e. assuming the image's manufacture in situ to be guided by the growing skill in absolute pitch, one must assume that its correctness depends on that of the previous image. (The skill in pitching the current image can hardly be uninfluenced by the approval of the previous one.) So the current and previous images can't be evaluated for reliability independently of each other. On the other hand, neither are they acting entirely in concert. One of them may present an unclarity or instability that undermines the other. ...Badly, and go to (B). Apparent fit, on either view, and repeat (C). The weight of influence of a (possibly wrong) consensus then increases.
(D) Thoughts have turned to music, and found an ear worm active. Increasingly often, tempted to evaluate it for veracity, or even for the indication of it in vividness. (If not tempted, discard and go to B). The latter is an option at least if the ear worm happens to be one of the core. (Occasionally, an ear worm is actually a rapid sequence-of-Ravel-starts-as-calibration-attempt, haha. Not sure if that's a good or bad.) If not core, the image might yet be suspected of being significantly vivid, if it is music likely heard only in one key. As with (A), go to (B or C) depending on satisfaction.
(E) Reminded of (e.g. from reading about) a piece of music. Lately (never previously) construction of the image may well be interrupted and restarted in an effort to position it right.
(F) ... Sub-species of (C), impressed by the vividness of the images of more than one core fragment, but aware of the possibility of deepening error: or rather, the possibility of deepening trust entrenching the same error, such that the vividness might be caused by the pitching being relative to each previous image as much as by veracity of the present one. (The "wrong consensus", above.) Have been on occasion inclined by this awareness to interrogate one or more of the images for signs of deviance, but gratified instead by a spontaneous correction: presentation of an image differently pitched and apparently uninfluenced by the prevailing consensus.