I just don't want to live anymore. Nothing in life seems to interest me anymore. I don't feel adequate to deal with life.
I feel like I can't really keep up with life and just want to give up. — Question
Only times when I feel really happy is in my sleep. I just dream my life away. — Question
All they want me to do is find some new behavioral patterns and immerse myself in some activities. I don't want that. I don't want anything for the matter. Under such circumstances, suicide doesn't seem to me like a bad option. — Question
But do you feel your life as rich with meaning?I don't feel as though my life is meaningless. I live and try and help my mother however I can. — Question
What about from an emotional standpoint, or rather why does it need to be "from a standpoint" at all? What about from an emotional feeling? Do you want to associate with people, would you feel association to be enriching?From a biological standpoint, I see no reason to interact with people anymore. Neither do I want any women in my life?
Philosophy seems to help me; but, it's like I've reached all the answers I was searching for in my life and am content with everything. I don't listen to my desires and I don't want to deal with any future problems. So, if I end it now it would be with a smile, not as an act of desperation.
Maybe I just miss being depressed...
I don't feel like this is something that requires medical attention and would rather have people not tell me this is something I need to "fix" or "get better". — Question
All they want me to do is find some new behavioral patterns and immerse myself in some activities. I don't want that. I don't want anything for the matter. Under such circumstances, suicide doesn't seem to me like a bad option. — Question
Yes this is the effect of the SSRIs. I've been on them and they do more harm than good - they make one like a vegetable, without any desires. I would advise meeting with your psychiatrist, and making a plan together with them to go off the SSRIs. It can be a long term plan. Say you will go off off them in two years. But still, you gotta make a plan and then work it out. You offer the long-term possibility to let your psychiatrist feel that they have control - you need to be a little bit tricky with them. If you say you wanna just quit them, then they'll be like "No no no, that is impossible, yadda yadda". So that's why you say that over quite some time you would like to make a plan to go off them. Then they will agree.I don't feel as though my life is meaningless. I live and try and help my mother however I can. From a biological standpoint, I see no reason to interact with people anymore. Neither do I want any women in my life? Philosophy seems to help me; but, it's like I've reached all the answers I was searching for in my life and am content with everything — Question
Yeah what idiots psychiatrists are. When they give you chemicals which make you feel good sitting in a chair, why the hell would you go out there and immerse yourself in some activities? You're already feeling good sitting in the chairAll they want me to do is find some new behavioral patterns and immerse myself in some activities. — Question
This is just the effect of the medication. As you're no longer experiencing the negative emotions you would otherwise experience, you are experiencing boredom. The negative emotions were trying to tell you something. Now that has been removed, but the underlying problem has not been solved. So another manifestation of it has come up - boredom.I'm just wary of life and want something certain in my life that is less trivial than the day to day mundane/repetitive/boring — Question
Quit the medication. Find a PSYCHOLOGIST on the side. He will be helpful in battling the psychiatrist, and teaching you how to cope without medication. Screw self-help - what you need much more is to actually experience the emotions of the real you - who is currently suppressed by all these drugs. These emotions will give you a desire to live and to do great things.What should I do? Where is this desire originating from? Fuck, life seems pointless and with no purpose. I've read all the self-help books I can and there really isn't an inkling of desire to want to go back to them. — Question
My apologies!To be fair, I'm not all that young anymore (26). — Question
Yes, these are issues a psychologist, especially a good one, could be very helpful with! This is most important to deal with in order to get your life back and feel great once again! (Y)But, I want to go back to college; but, I guess it's my low self-esteem telling you otherwise in the above post and such. I don't feel depressed as others might tell you I am. — Question
Good! This is what I like to see! Take ownership of who you are and of your situation! I'm sure if you develop this confidence in yourself, and your self-esteem, you will be able to achieve great things! You will most certainly surprise yourself by what you can do, and how good you can feel! :)Yes, I'm on some pretty heavy drugs (not street drugs) that have helped me in the past; but, as you say am seriously considering getting off them to get in touch with my emotions again. — Question
I've done very little math as an engineer actually in university from what I remember - i was surprised compared to my expectations haha :)Thanks for the advice Agustino. A while ago Wittgenstein inspired me to become an engineer; but, learning as I'm not all that great at math (I'm pretty good; but, like I said not great). I'll focus more on thinking less about my emotions and trying to fulfill my dreams of being a professional philosopher. — Question
And there's also one who recommended reading the mystics - as if that does anything in such a situation.
You said you used to be an engineer. — darthbarracuda
Yet when I'm by myself I'm troubled deeply by many rather scary or dark thoughts, existential and/or intrusive in nature. — darthbarracuda
I don't know, if you're on medication I'd keep taking it and make sure you're taking care of yourself. — darthbarracuda
Nietzsche — darthbarracuda
Your crutch is the word "seems" here. Find out what is before you make a decision about what seems. Otherwise you will have made a rash, ill-informed decision. — Thorongil
Yes, I'm on some pretty heavy drugs (not street drugs) that have helped me in the past; but, as you say am seriously considering getting off them to get in touch with my emotions again. — Question
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